believed:

no one ever lets me give them a piggyback ride

they’re just like “i might break you”

no you foolish mortal

i have the strength of a thousand horses

please, place yourself upon my back

perfectly describing me

I didn’t think I would miss you as much as I do.

It’s not a good thing to replay memories in your head: the good ones make you feel nostalgic or sad, the bad ones destroy you. I’ve learned never to replay them, so as a general rule, I don’t.

Right now I’m watching the good memories like a film in my head. Why am I doing this? I don’t know.

I feel really lost. What has happened to me in the past few weeks that has changed everything so drastically? Everything is a blur. And what the hell have I been doing? I’m not myself.

 All I do is sing, and sing, and sing. It makes me feel better, it makes me feel human.

Damn, I wish there was an easier way to go about this, but I feel like it’s too late now. Don’t even know why I’m typing this.

I miss you, I hope you miss me too. You won’t know it, but today I’ll sing a song for you.

Rarely am I up this early

I had 3 hours of sleep

Today I have a hard quiz and I have reading due but I haven’t done shit because of the amount of rage that occurred last night which prevented me from working

Guess what?

It’s morning already but STILL FUCKING RAGING

Waiting for possible ass whoopin, well-deserved too.

RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE

Are you fucking kidding me? Never in my life have I been this used. NEVER. And “used” is quite literally the perfect word to describe my situation. I cannot even comprehend what just happened because I’ve never experienced this before.

I did not deserve to be treated the way you have treated me; no one deserves to be treated that way. Also, you do not deserve to be given peace over this, indecisive bitch ass.

Fuck you man!! You’ve supposedly made your decision but you’re still continuing to start shit!

My voice is hoarse from screaming off my balcony multiple times.

Time to find a cuddle buddy.

Fuck you dude

“If it’s meant to be, it will be.”

Many people don’t like these phrases (which are pretty much the same thing but whatever) because they don’t believe in fate and predestined outcomes or what not.

This is what I have to say about it:

I don’t really care if our paths are laid out for us or not. We won’t really know for sure, because it’s so debatable and such an open topic. We all have our own opinions about it.

Not even sure what my stance is about this phrase, but I like to at least have the thought pattern that “what’s meant to be will always find a way” because it gives me comfort. It gives me hope and makes me believe that things will turn out alright.

So whether or not the concept of “fate” is true, whether or not “if it’s meant to be, it will be” is true, I don’t really care. If it makes me feel better, I’m going to think that way. Maybe that’s selfish, but there is nothing wrong with feeling that everything will be okay for you.

Phrases like these lift me up, and things that lift you up are good things.

Marvin’s Room - Jojo

Fuck that new girl that you like so bad
She’s not crazy like me, I bet you like that
I said fuck that new girl that’s been in your bed
And when you’re in her, I know I’m in your head
I’m just sayin’ you could do better.

(Song of the week,

and i can sing it really well just sayin’)