June 2011
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thingsthatmakeyouhorny.tumblr.com
So I’ve found a blog that makes me go :3 and isn’t actually a shit ton of porn gifs or something. I usually like blogs that make me go :3 instead of ;) because they make me happz. I find this blog to be oddly comforting and it’s making me feel a bit better, for now.
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alonealonealone.
I told myself that I would literally surround myself with people all day because I can’t be alone. If I’m alone, the bad thoughts start coming and I literally end up destroying my emotional state. Today I did a good job of making sure to reach out to other people, and to make sure that I wasn’t alone—the only time I was alone at all was when I napped for a bit. Right now...
May 2011
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just one.
It’s funny how one little thing can ruin your entire day. Something super insignificant, something that doesn’t even matter in the bigger scope of things, something someone said or did that he/she probably already forgot about, something no one noticed except you—this little thing can cause your mood to plummet. I know, it’s only one thing. Something so unimportant...
“The art of living lies less in eliminating our troubles than in growing with...”
– Bernard M. Baruch
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brb tumblr,
I already said a couple of days ago that I’d be taking a break from the world for a bit—this unfortunately includes tumblr—because I have a lot on my plate and I can’t seem to handle all of it. I just need some time to heal I guess. I may have fooled you all, acting like I was coming back early after making a speedy emotional recovery because I suddenly reblogged a bunch of...
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war.
It feels like I’m in a battle against myself. I have to make the conscious effort to stop the overthinking and to stop the thoughts that are digging me into a deep hole. It’s miserable and it makes me feel miserable. I have to stop the mental processes that are making me internalize all these negative things. I know I have to focus more on myself instead of others, but I don’t...
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disillusionment
(noun): disappointment resulting from the discovery that something is not as good as one believed it to be. I used to like writing about “disillusionment” in essays all the time in high school, acting like I knew what the fuck I was talking about. I would always get good grades on them but I now realize that I didn’t even have a firm grasp on what it meant to actually “be...
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lost.
A lot of things happened tonight. I’m currently sitting in my bed, thinking about everything. I’m not supposed to do this, and I told myself I wouldn’t, but I guess this is the initial aftermath and I should be allowed to think things through. I’ve realized how much things have changed. If I could wish for anything right now, it would be to fast-forward to the future to the...
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i just don't know anymore.
I try and try and try, a part of me is still positive and believes that things will get better, if only I was given a little bit more time. Things don’t get fixed in a short period, people need to grow and learn before things get solved properly. I just need a chance. I’ve already had my chance, now that I think about it, and I probably fucked it up, so I just need time to prove myself...
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“I have decided to stick with love, hate is too great a burden to bear.”
– Martin Luther King Jr. (via quote-book)
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